During the course of my entire life, I have felt that the drive that people around me appear to possess has been missing in my own life. I have always lacked in the motivation department. I tend to procrastinate and shrug things off as unimportant if I don’t have the drive to get started on something. I have struggled with this from childhood. I have a strong tendency to become inspired. I will make plans and to-do lists galore. I will have such good intentions, but that’s always where it ends – intentions. There appear to be many explanations for this: fear, boredom, priorities, perfectionism, self-consciousness, etc. The things that have been the most important in my life always have gotten done, but I have found that they take me much longer than I had initially planned. For instance, when I decided to go to school, it was something that I had wanted to do for years. I was so excited and inspired to finally be heading in the direction of my new career. Over the course of those years of school, many things got in the way of my goal. Once again, there was lack in managing my time, perfectionism, fear, boredom, and many other components that kept me stalled. School ended up taking me longer than I had first anticipated. I wanted to graduate so badly, but I couldn’t find that initial drive and motivation that I had felt so strongly in the beginning.
I have recently come to realize that I have absolutely no problem with finding my initial inspiration, but the problem lies in keeping that momentum and motivation going long after I have started. From my own personal research, I have come to find that this is a fairly common attribute in introverts and specifically INFP (introversion, intuition, feeling, perception) personality types. I’m sure there are many individuals who find themselves struggling with the same issue. So my question is this: what is it that these people do to keep moving forward when this happens to them? What is it that reignites that spark in them that is needed to continue? I am currently on a path of discovery to find what I need to do in order to get myself going again once I have hit that wall.